It happened. Today, one year, came. As much as I wanted to avoid it, it came. The whole of yesterday and today felt surreal… as if my mind has sent me back into shock to protect me… Yes I cried, multiple times, but it’s nearing midnight and the date has almost come to a close.
It feels like a moment ago…. It feels like a lifetime ago…. It feels like it were all a dream….
I don’t know what happens tomorrow or the following day or next year. I’ve been trained over the past year to only look at the current day, hour, minute, second… Whichever is possible at that very moment.
I do know that I love my husband more than anything or anyone in the entire universe and I will continue to beyond the day I die. I do know that he loved me more than anything in this world as well.
I miss him. I miss getting to shower him in love. I miss feeling his love every single day. I miss everything about him, my very best friend.