Day 16: How is this reality

It has been a very difficult past two weeks and I honestly don’t know how to carry on. People see it as courageous or brave, but it’s truly heart-wrenching every moment of the day, and time just seems to carry on without permission. Saying I am so very lost and heartbroken doesn’t seem to be enough.

I cried for hours on end today. There is nothing to ease the pain or sadness. I miss and love Mark with every fiber of my being. I don’t understand how what has happened can be reality.